wheeee. feel so FREE now. don't have to care anything. no more rumours. lalalala. well, this morning i have a talk with my bro. he advice me alot. and when i came back from parade. i saw little notes on my table. my brother changed alot. he care about me much more than last time. (: ILOVEYOU,BANG. ILOVEYOU,DOMI. ILOVEYOU,VIVIEN. ILOVEYOU,ZAI [KENNY]
upload for no reason (:
nowadays i'm addicted with this
8:00 PM
at last he requested to break. its only 1 month 18 days. but its worth wasting time one those days. there's nothing you can do or say, you're going to break my heart anyway, don't worry about this heart of mine, just get up and leave,i'll be fine. just leave the pieces when you go. they say to stay srtrong because so many people want to see me break. well,i just dun care. they WIN.congrats. YOU BROKE ME.
8:17 AM
i woke up at 7 .15 today. and i can't sleep back. what is wrong with me? i was really half broken last night. thinking of what should i do. i off my handphone last night around 10? YEAH. and i tot this morning would be a lot of message but is just dissapointing. ONE message from him and TWO from another guy. it hurts to love you the way i do and then look at you and realize how much you don't care. i just don't know what are you thinking. perhaps should i ask? i hate to see the one i love happy with somebody, but i surely hate it more to see the one i love unhappy with me. what should i do next? i don't know. i don't know what else is he hiding from me. my heart already half broken when will it be totally broken? IDON'TKNOW. i text vivien this morning. she told me she dream about her love. i'm sure she don't want to wake up and continue her life in her dream. this is what love are for?
6:49 AM
Friday, October 30, 2009Y
i'm tired. i just hate quarreling. don't understand what is she staring. to me her face is unforgettable especially when she stare at me today. what do you still want from me? you and DOMI okay back wert. still stare apa? back to topic. nowadays we text each other x cukup 10 message he already din't reply me. don't know what is he so busying with. and today i tot he was sleeping. i keep on texting him but i din't get any replies. call him but no people answer. at last i online and i saw him onlining. am i stupid? or am i dumb? waiting for a his message and he's onlining. don't even care to have a look at his phone weather i did message him anot. maybe my message is no longer that important. what can i do to make his life happier? i don't know. i'm stress out. he just off and he said he'll text me. and finally my phone vibrate. and i tot it was him. but it isn't. i am scared to fall in love, i am scared to fall out of love, and i'm scared of not being loved by the one ILOVERIGHTNOW. time will make you forget about me but time will make me love you more than before. when i say i'm OKAY,but i'm not really OKAY.
3:58 AM
Monday, October 26, 2009Y
aihh. today din't go to school because not so feeling well. later going parade work. i hope it is not because of those flower. or else zao MATI. my hand is still itchy. my god. what to do? anyway, i'm still waiting for his message. i don't know he's attending school anot. i should pay more attention to my handphone today. but if he doesn't text me i'll be hyper duper extra broken. AIHHHHHHHHH. i told him he'll regret together with me. and he said that we don't text for a moment. what does it mean by this? he need to think or what? DON'T UNDERSTAND!
5:41 PM
you'll never touch that blog anymore. delete it and continue with your new blog.
5:03 AM
urghhhhhhhh. i don't know what is happening with me. my hand comes up with those red dot. am i sensitive with flowers or lotion or organic food? i just don't wish its because of those flowers. i really wish to work there. i'm happy with my job there. just easy and i can go back home early. not like others work until 10 pm. if i really sensitive with flower. just to say bye bye to friends in parade. not going to work there cause mom doesn't allow me to work until 10pm unless got people fetch me back. just stress with stuff like this and LOVE. i just don't understand WHY! i'm tired. i just don't want to quarrel. when i needed you so much where were you? online? you should know how's my feeling when i write this post. tears comes out without reason. should i attend school tomorrow? yes or no? i don't know. tired of thinking. ='[
p/s: ILOVEYOU.
4:24 AM
Saturday, October 24, 2009Y
waiting for YOUR message!
5:40 AM
today 7.00 bleh balik rumah. WHEE* gei song ar. can come back at 7.00. but vivien still working right now. i 'hou hang fok'. can come back early. today make around 40 corsage? YEAH, i think so. today make very less only. yesterday around 80. break record whole day sitting there just to make corsage. today not too tired. JUST the RIGHT TIME (: today got a RUDE customer buy tomato. just feel like slapping her. but no choice. customer is always right ):
hwa laaaaaa. my bones are totally broken. just woke up. yesterday was my first day working in parade. never expected it will be soo much of works. mygod. tired of standing. first she called me to wrap ferrero second cut paper thrid tear those rose fourth she teach me how to make rose stuff. TIRED. view his blog just now. saying that today he go to parade is just to pierce. nothing else. somehow feeling like BROKEN! aihhh. should i walk with him today? yes or no?
6:12 PM
Wednesday, October 21, 2009Y
i will never hurt you anymore. i will never break my promise. i will never drink beer. i will tolerate more. i will try not to quarrel with you all the time. i MEAN IT (:
2:44 AM
Tuesday, October 20, 2009Y
wheeee* i din't go to school because i don't want to sit in the hall. tulang also picah. tired somemore. today woke up around nine. and then wash up. go out to order KFC for my class. or else my teacher banyak cakap. after that put my bro to school. and i went to parade to interview. WOOOHOOO! people hire me la wey. tomorrow after school go work dy at cultural walk. that shop is like sell flower those stuff. as long as i don't need to stay in the house is already HALELUYA. XD. DONG promise me: ♥ not to FAG ♥ not to whack that guy ♥ not to HURT me. thats all. cukup for me (:
10:32 PM
[Girl languages] when i dun call u =its bcuzzz im waiting 4 u 2 co me When i walk away from u mad follow me~ when i stare at ur mouth =kiss me when i push u or hit u =grab me n dont let go when i start cursing at u =kis me n tel me u luv me when im quite =ask me wads wrong or mess wif me when i ignore u =gi\/e me ur attention when u c m3 at my worst =tell me im beautiful when u c me walking =sneak up n hug my waist from behind when im scared =protect me when i lay my head on ur shoulder =til my head up n kiz me when i tease u =tease me back n make me laugh when i dont ans 4 a long time =ressure me dat everything is okay when i lok at u wif doubt bck urself up when i say dat i lk u =i rili do mr dat u could und when i grab at ur hands =hold me 2 when i tel u a secret =kep it safe n untold when i lok at u in ur eyes =dont look away til i do when i mis u =im hurting inside when u break my heart =the pain will never rili goes away when i say it over ___i stil want u b mine_i still wan u b mine___
1:23 AM
booo. went to parade just now. its like alot of shop want to hire. but still have to wait for their call. but one of the shop in cultural walk wants me to interview tomorrow. don't know am i going anot. hmmmphs. matilah aku. wheeee. muka dahlah hodoh. maybe people xkan hire me. aihh. seong sam ):
1:08 AM
Monday, October 19, 2009Y
us. the promoter (:
5:24 AM
i know what am i doing here. i won't regret together with you. since we started i'll never think of REGRET. i just don't understand why you're trying to say yourself is useless and stuff like this. or actually you got a meaning behind? i'm tired of guessiing. I WILL NEVER REGRET TOGETHER WITH YOU. NO AND NEVER!
4:51 AM
You're on the phone with your girlfriend, she's upset She's going off about something that you said 'Cause she doesn't get your humor like I do
I'm in the room, it's a typical Tuesday night I'm listening to the kind of music she doesn't like And she'll never know your story like I do
But she wears short skirts, I wear T-shirts She's Cheer Captain and I'm on the bleachers Dreaming about the day when you wake up and find That what you're looking for has been here the whole time
If you could see that I'm the one who understands you Been here all along, so why can't you see? You, you belong with me, you belong with me
Walking the streets with you and your worn-out jeans I can't help thinking this is how it ought to be Laughing on a park bench, thinking to myself Hey, isn't this easy?
And you've got a smile that could light up this whole town I haven't seen it in a while since she brought you down You say you're fine, I know you better than that Hey, what ya doing with a girl like that?
She wears high heels, I wear sneakers She's Cheer Captain and I'm on the bleachers Dreaming about the day when you wake up and find That what you're looking for has been here the whole time
If you could see that I'm the one who understands you Been here all along, so why can't you see? You belong with me
Standing by and waiting at your back door All this time how could you not know? Baby, you belong with me, you belong with me
Oh, I remember you driving to my house in the middle of the night I'm the one who makes you laugh when you know you're 'bout to cry And I know your favorite songs and you tell me 'bout your dreams Think I know where you belong, think I know it's with me
Can't you see that I'm the one who understands you? Been here all along, so why can't you see? You belong with me
Standing by and waiting at your back door All this time, how could you not know? Baby, you belong with me, you belong with me
You belong with me Have you ever thought just maybe You belong with me? You belong with me
4:37 AM
muka injured dialah. cutee kan? still want to drink heineken. aihh.
just now text him and suddenly tell me he's kat hospital. hak sei yan. kan i ada heart attack. not very bad injured. saja forehead and hand. anyway,text text ha he xde reply. then after 1 hour like that i text him again. he says he's onlining. lan wei ngo wait for his messsage. nowadays msg awhile jew he x reply. maybe i'm too annoying. =S tomorrow back to school. afternoon pegi parade again. aihh tired plak. nights.
p/s: take care ar sei sui zai. mwah (:
4:10 AM
Sunday, October 18, 2009Y
SMILE BABYYYYYY! (:
8:44 PM
pagi pagi dah xde mood hari ni. plan to go jj today one. but dia kata dia x mo. den xpe lor. aihh. anyway, went to stadium to watch satu malaysia yesterday. masuk jew dalam. OMG! full man. no place to sit. never seen so many people before. and its so JAM. after one hour i went out with vivien jalan jalan. look jew behind ITS HIM! never expected i will meet him there. you know guys, he SMILE when he's with me (: awww. i just love seeing him smile. there's few pics here. (:
school look (:
8:08 PM
Saturday, October 17, 2009Y
woke up at 7 plus today. nowadays i sleep late and woke up early in the morning. maybe because of some reasons. its so boring wake up so early in the morning. anyway,i'm waiting for a job. no want wants to hire me. i need money la wey. and i would like to spend my time outside and not in the house. i got nothing to do in the house. only online and TV-ing. this is soo hell boring. but nowadays got alot of problems with him. i'm really tired. tired of crying. tired of answering. from the day after PMR our problem comes. every single day we're quarreling for small problems. and i'm JEALOUS. i admit i am JEALOUS. what to do? just act i'm not? and don't reply his message? and i think he's chatting with his KAK right now;maybe. my six sence tell me he'll very soon love another girl. not that i don't trust you is because we less text each other and quarrel 24 hours a day? I'm REALLY TIRED! tomorrow night going stadium to watch satu malaysia. it will be very boring but i can get 14 koko marks. its worth for it. its time to chao. tomorrow morning still have to go for JAPANESE class. nights kwan kwan.
p/s: IMISSYOU & ILOVEYOU. And i mean it for the rest of my life.
5:29 AM
Thursday, October 15, 2009Y
DOMINATE ; DON
ineedyou;iwantyou,iloveyou (:
DON says i've changed alot.
i wasn't that girl she knews last time.
and he says i no longer love him.
if i don't love you anymore,what for i jealous about you and her
if i don't love you,why should i beg my mom to let me go out this sat just to see you?
if i don't love you,i wouldn't do so much stuff just to make you SMILE.
if i don't love you,why would i cry for you & you don't treasures my tears
what am i doing? STUPID STUFF just so make each other quarrel?
i've changed because i love you deeper inside.
and thats my style.
i apologise if i hurt you.
I'm SORRY!
iloveyou and i'll never leave you alone.
i meant it (:
4:32 AM
STRANGER (: i know who are you. write your name there. don't be a tortoise. COME ON. hate me? just fcuk off from my profile. i like to write what i want. none of your business. and this is my BLOG! you're UNWELCOMED! FCUK OFF!
2:51 AM
i hate school. i don't like school. i don't want to go school. i want to work [full-time]. =[ can i? its a NO. arghhh. today went to parade with vivien cari job. every single shop/stall we asked. but its not working because of our age i think. finally found one. that job only for 10days at tow mou gong sell watch. rm3 per hour. its a lil bit less. i still don't know if i'm working there anot. MAP is only the last hope for us. i need money & job. hire me pleaseee (: i'll comfirm i'll be a good promoter.
12:51 AM
Wednesday, October 14, 2009Y
I DON'T LIKE YOU TO CALL HEREVEN YOU GOT or NO CREDIT! LEAVE ME ALONE.
5:57 AM
wednesday? ewwww. hate it. today went to school. after assembly still have to walk to upperhall because those teachers wanted to introuduce us some activities after PMR. ALOT of activities and its *WAJIB* wth? this makes me ponteng-ing school. this is so boring. and form three people still have to go to upper hall for 27 days. only FLOOR no CHAIRS is allow.== i prefer staying in the class chat with my friends. their nuts. =X anyway,is out of topic. arghhhhhh. i made him angry again. my sensitive case definately. ckit ckit jew angry. maybe i terlalu mencintai dia. whats wrong with mey? SORRY babyyy. i'm MAD =[
p/s: mencintaimu slalu.
1:10 AM
Tuesday, October 13, 2009Y
DOMINATE;FISH:IKAN;BABYY i'm sorry about just now. i'm really very sorry about it. i tried to phone you but you don't want to pick up. i know i shouldn't say it but that time i was so angry with HER. never see properly den scolded me. i'm really sorrry!!! i din't meant it. i don't want to loss you. =[ can you forgive me? can you? i really made you very moody just now. i really don't meant it. CAN YOU PLEASEE FORGIVE ME? =[
5:06 AM
Finally form three is FREE from the JAIL. anyway today paper quite hard eh [for me] =D went to parade after that paper with winnie & nadiah. quite boring for today. nothing so special. maybe vivien isn't here. DON went there with whole gang of friends. his friends are so scary especially KENNY [ankku yg bising] i just don't dare to get closer with him. SCARY FRIENDS. =S ONE MONTH ANNIVERSERY mana bleh that boring? DON want sampai mana zao ada gang. DANG. i x suka la. but one of his friend org india so funny. XD. i don't even get what he's talking. DON somemore pegi help RON inilah itulah. i'm just SOOO bored. got a few pics here (:
12:56 AM
Monday, October 12, 2009Y
tadaaa. i marked few subjects included: b.malaysia : pass but teruk b.inggeris : pass but teruk maths : happy with my paper one sejarah : pass but teruk geografi : pass pass dei lerh dou. i got nothing to do. xleh masuk otak la KH. what can i do? =[ xde mood somemore. what else!!?
4:41 AM
AGAIN & AGAIN! what do expect from me again? i just don't feel like going parade tomorrow because of your attitude. when you're not in a mood pleasee don't call me. call SOMEONE else. i just don't like talking to a FIRE. me and his conversation: ME : Hello HIM : what are you doing? ME : eating ice. HIM : orh *speechless* SILENT for moment. ME : nape call me? HIM : to ask you what you're doing ME : when you phone me can you please mou gam "FUHIN" HIM : today no mood. ME : then don't call me lor. HIM : okay la,you go online byee -END- i heven even say BYEE. i'm just so not in a mood right now. =[ he don't even like to share his things with me. just SILENT. i really wish to see you SMILE. just only a SMILE. can you? JUST LEAVE ME ALONE.
4:06 AM
xde mood la kwan kwan. he phone me just now. "FUHIN" aku. =[. entahlah nape. maybe he xde mood. this time xde laugh also. =[[[[[[ sad la aku. ish. xnak pick up his phone anymore =[
1:17 AM
Sunday, October 11, 2009Y
tadaaa kwan kwan just finishing bathing. rush to switch on the computer just to have a look at his blog since he called me to view yesterday. *whee. i'm getting soo mad with his blog. mygod.so feel like whacking him. bwahahaha. can i? =D eh, that 10 bucks i xmau just to make you a HEART shape lerh. xmau ke? bagi balik lah. ish. he says he love to quarrel with me. byk funny. where got people suka quarrel dgan girlfriend punya? the only ONE. i hurt you? I'm SORRY! =[ i just hope you're not playing with love. ampun berjuta ribu. :) anyway, back to topic. today maths paper one quite easy but paper two isn't that easy. YEAH,sej is over. next is to see my results. C or D? takutnye aku. tomorrow KH lerh. need to do more on those imbangan duga stuff. ngo chao lor kwan kwan. bwai bwai. and yeah esok bleh jumpa dia leh. *happiee RINDU PADA KO (:
11:11 PM
i'm getting mad. arghhh. anyway,i din't really study today. muahaha. rindu pada ko (: tadi dia call aku. chat jor just only AWHILE. x cukup lah. just finish helping mama balut wantan.*yummy before that i went to study but xleh masuk otak and i took a few pics. wahaha.
12:03 AM
Saturday, October 10, 2009Y
i'm awake. i don't know why i wake up so early in the morning. 7.45? YEAH. mygod,how can i wake up so early in the morning and its not a school day. i just can't sleep back. feel quite dizzy just now. i woke up and i saw his apology message. tadaaa. maybe thats the reason i cannot sleep back. i'm attending JAPANESE CLASS later. LAZY la wey. x go bleh x? mama sure whack me == after that its sej time. i don't know what will happen to my sej paper. D will do i think. can't text him today la wey. bored dou ar. 2 more days to go jek. very fast ger la. lalala.i don't feel good right now. backache. entahlah apa terjadi. == i'll stop here kwan kwan. and yeah those who wish me all the best trmasuk lah: ♥DOMINATE Ou Wei Jin ♥Lemon Leow Wai Mun ♥Vivien Wong Yuen Lye ♥Jojo Wong Chui Tung ♥Kenny [ankku =D] ♥Bear Bear ♥WenJun ♥Wenjing ♥Cheok ♥JunKia ♥Liroon ♥Nadiah ♥SuetLi ♥Yvonne ♥Laihang ♥MengHoi ♥Steven [abgku =)] ♥EvonLin ♥SuetMun ♥Kentsoon ♥Kardic ♥IssacHoWenWei =D ♥Dickson Soo ♥Yenli ♥Kahheng ♥Grace ♥Miko ♥Hazwa Umira ♥Farah hanim ♥Yasmin ♥SuetKuan ♥Datuk Hor [cousin]
3:18 PM
what can i do to make you happy? i'm figuring out. he's moody right now. and he's like scolded me just now. i just don't like him to put his fire on me. what can i do? i just want him to be a lil bit happier. arghh. =[ what can i do?
4:40 AM
tadaaaaa kwan kwan (: aku online. two more days to go for PMR. i can't wait til PMR is over. OMG! i'm so excited. anyway, 13 oct 2009 kita punya 1st month anniversery leh. bwhahaha. such a good timing. and YEAH,trima kasih kpd SAMKARDIC kerana sudi accompany aku skejap kat library. arigato (: i'm chatting with him. WHEEE. i stop here la. nanti ge study jor. joi gin buddy. GAMBATEH (: